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2011-11-30T02:27:00.002+11:00

One of the more heart-wrenching nights.

No, it wasn't the exam results.

Are you fit to judge me or my character? Look at the plank in your eye before you tell me about the one in mine.

Who does not disappoint, is as rare as I am.

2011-11-24T05:26:00.001+11:00

Why am I such a jealous prick?

Is it because I've fallen for you or I'm just a paranoid android?

Green with confusion.

2011-11-21T14:56:00.002+11:00

My mind is a powerful whirlpool.

My heart is a curious tornado.

That I cannot control;

These forces of nature.

2011-09-24T00:45:00.003+10:00

as the world fades and lingers in the temporal pleasure, excitement and whatnot. I hang around in the solitude in my room, typing away as my friends and the world indulge in the alcohol, loud music and the company of the lost and soulless.

i come from where i came, the desolates of the restless and meaningless, the young and experimental, i tried it all. earlier than many of the others have yet to.

i stand before these temptations with a heavy heart, now i understand more of the bible. just by watching the world, how its inhabitants behave, the degrading of morality and widely acceptance of filth in nowadays lives.

i stand my ground, praying for a revival in this land, and for my heart to be as sturdy as it is now, to reject the conformity and pleasures that these things bring. sigh, as strong as my heart be, its only part of me, its still human. i need the Lord, i want the Lord, i need him.

God, father, creator, give me the strength to remain true to you, to stand upright before you, to keep my ground strongly rooted in your word, your truth. that though the world may fall, i will never fall, 'cos it is you who hold me up, who keep my legs firm, for you watch my paths and you guard my house, surely you have the best for me, and surely i will be the best that i can be, in you and through you. i thank you Lord for your magnificence and your grace. Glory be unto you my king.

your son, servant, petitioner,

always.

Jen

2011-05-30T11:09:00.002+10:00

wow my last post was on the 25th of october, 2010. that's a pretty long time ago, hmmm. yea so im back for awhile, theres so much pent up, accrued feelings in me that i can't say out verbally. thoughts that i shouldn't harbour, feelings that shouldn't be manifested..

i want to say i love u but i can't because i can't. lord, help me lord. have u ever met someone u like so much, so much till this fondness spans over more than half a year, well it's quite huge for me, i haven't met anyone like her before. and i always get what i want but this time, i can't. haha. so sad right.

lord, forgive this sinner of me lord, father God, my soul is tainted with sinful desires father i pray and ask of u to wash these sins of my heart and mind completely lord. renew in me a love for you instead of man. for God, your love is greater than all else o God. Amen

let me go read the bible, yea that's what i really need to do instead of delving deeper in this pit

2010-10-25T22:01:00.002+11:00

seriously who gives a rat's ass on what others think. i know i don't. i sing when i walk, doesn't matter if there's people around or not, i just sing when i walk. 'cos that's the way i like it and

that's the way i am.

2010-10-25T00:23:00.001+11:00

what if i told you i have fallen too deep for you

2010-10-20T16:23:00.002+11:00

always i tell myself, never and never to enter a relationship unless the other party is really truly the one.. or really truly the one i think she is.

why is it that this motto i hold is being shaken by the girl i see in front of me? i barely know her and such a stir in my beliefs. what a test of my heart..

sad part is, there can be no progress. note the conviction in that statement, there can be no, no and no progress.. the rest is for you to guess.

what a disheartenment, what a shot to the heart. only sighs can fill the loss of hope i have in my heart for us.. us, what an opinionated word on my part

2010-10-11T00:42:00.000+11:00

tell me Lord why. why cant u help me

2010-09-28T13:12:00.001+10:00

damn now i want to get a pair of shoes from HYPE.. aud 189$

and the exchange rate is so discouraging.. 1aud = 1.28sgd =\

2010-09-20T03:26:00.002+10:00

saving for a pair of wayfarer. a leather jacket. new pair of jeans. 5xtee. 2k for an all oz backpacking trip. 2k to bkk+hk with wacharin. and 1k for a short trip with mommy..

damn i got to start now

2010-09-13T13:31:00.000+10:00

please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

everything is wonderful now

2010-08-30T01:51:00.001+10:00

Because we all were ugly once.

2010-08-29T22:17:00.002+10:00

everyone is supposed to notice your X

however oblivious to it.

a renewed Y doesn't mean new. Maybe I just know too much that no one can try to understand. Perhaps, perhaps.

2010-08-23T00:58:00.002+10:00

a space revisited, an abyss rekindled, an avenue to discharge the complexity of the heart, soul and mind.

we are now open

2010-02-11T20:04:00.000+11:00

i hate myself for you hating you mom :/

2010-01-22T12:48:00.002+11:00

? really dont understand humans some times. i believe with full faith that 99% of the humans in my tiny land possess a chameleon-like character, able to change amidst various conditions or environments.. really, i was just checking out some of my good friend's fb and to my astonishment, i saw something i really wished i didnt.

God, i want to meet the remaining 1% of people.. 1 wont be entirely sure they're 100% good but at least 99% of that 1% would be fine. i dare say they will be better than the 99% of friends i have.

thats why i want to keep this space private..

2010-01-10T18:50:00.003+11:00

ignorant and blind, sightless to the infirmities of the world.

i just erased a whole chunk of words, describing the negativity of teenage love and the shallowness of the people around us. the phrase above was the last of what i left out in the word carnage.

i too am shallow, for i know this site is well guarded but why do i still feel naked, open and vulnerable to the eyes of fellow shallow people, of whom we call 'friends'.

2009-12-02T21:26:00.003+11:00

yes no maybe, i dont know, can u repeat the question

i will not write on the wall again
i will not write on the wall again

oh peter, hehehehehe

need these white media in my black box now

shouldnt be having these thoughts.......... noooooooo

2009-11-24T22:27:00.002+11:00

now that the war is over, its r&r time wooo! cant wait to get back man, miss my teevee and my mom and awaiting to see jie's new dog!!! cute cute

also im considering what to do when i go back... dont think i should join the army guys at zouk should i... should be at home with simpsons... whhooopish

2009-10-16T12:38:00.001+11:00

hmmmmm

2009-10-10T16:50:00.003+11:00

today should be one of the better saturdays i've had since the beginning of 09. the cool after-showers atmosphere is really captivating, somehow i feel all the negative emotions being subdued under. like its all rising to the skies.. and ch16 is slowly inducing me to become the couch potato that i truly am. damn tv i just love you too much

on a sidenote (realised i used this too often) i bought a couple of transfer paper from art friend ytd, am embarking on my diy t shirts soon. wooot

now on to tonight's schedule... should i mstrkfrt after jmg's 21st... overwhelmingly(yes that big) tempting when most of your party party friends are gg. especially those who are closet party animal and they decide to one time good one go strut their stuff in the club. wahhhh laooo then your friend celebrating his 21st and they all expect you to stay over. just when the decision is already made, you kena more poke poke to go zouk.... hmmm dillema

neh mind we shall see tonight we let the alcohol decide

2009-10-02T13:12:00.001+10:00

i wish

for all my

friends to stay

singleeee

and we'll all have more

fun this way

wheeeeeeee

2009-09-25T03:49:00.002+10:00

fucken cheesepies yellow tailed scumbags wrong rotten beggar spat fish bone! whathefuck manz what the mthrfckning fuck logic is this. oh my fucking rat ass, learn to give and take ma fuckers.

ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sry guys for this ultra explicit content-filled post cb

2009-08-23T05:51:00.002+10:00

i always have this thought, of going back to the past. like back to chillax life during secondary school days where the closest friends are found. or afternoons in nyp, strolling along the hallways for tutorial, arriving late as usual but always manage to sneak in stealthily, like how i fare for my final exams. the only A grade i got, was.... was..... was Principles of the Slacker Movement. kinda top my class for that, maybe the cohort even.

dont we all wish we could go back in time? yea we all do. wished i could go back in time for Coldplay's concert. damn cant believe army make me miss it, lets see what else army made me miss. mhmmmmm oh ya my entire life. thanks but no thanks MG douchebag.

on a sidenote im thinking if i should go learn hairdressing, kinda my passion but my dad will not, will not, will not allow it. fo sho fo shure for sure he wouldnt. should i go pick it up anyway?

think i should pick up the pillow and settle my head comfortably on it eh. yea i should.

sleeep tight my gazillion readers

2009-07-29T22:12:00.001+10:00

does anybody still visits this place?

2009-02-21T19:21:00.003+11:00

woke up to an aching body but alls good when i walked down.. the 3-4pmish atmosphere really seduces u to want to just nuaaa. feels like as if time has stopped. indescribable feeling. if only there werent the 'steal a kid's best 2 years of his life' conscription.........

2008-09-12T21:35:00.002+10:00

guess whos back

beep beep bop bop viper company ya
we are the men from platoon 3

wooots baby RECRUIT Tan Jen Sen Jansen is now PRIVATE Tan Jen Sen Jansen whahahah song ah. your boy here has POP-ed!! 9 weeks of enhanced training down! wooot wooot. and i say LJLP to the army

oh ya know whats better, i was supposed to be charged with SOL for smoking in the toilet, then they lessen the punishment to 7 days regimental guard duty and then they changed it again to 3 days area cleaning and admin work!! wahhahaha sibei song laaaa! otherwise i would be like charged for 16 offences? whathefuck

now cannot wait to get my posting and plan a route for my dream vocation: anything 8-5 + no stay in.

all i can say now is HUAT AH!! im a fucking private!

2008-07-26T17:14:00.002+10:00

should i try to get into command school or just slack my way through..

zzz what a predicament army has placed me in.

i so miss my old life. and when they say one will talk about NS once he enlists, believe me its for real.

my platoon is good, for now. haha. theres this guy who share the same name as me, has a tattoo(his whole back), smokes and have the same thinking as me on our army life.

what army does to you is unimaginable my friends. i didnt even enjoy the house party ytd, was thinking of sleep more than anything else. crap

2008-07-09T02:16:00.003+10:00

yes guys, by the time you read this, i will be in tekong. mixed feelings about enlistment. and as you know, there wont be TV or radio or computers in BMT, so the only way to keep me alive is through your SMS. pls text me generously and regularly. whatever the message may be, i will keep in my heart and mind that theres someone out there who cares. till 2 weeks later, ciao first ciao. hehe

OLLOLOLOLOOLOLOLOLOLOLO. chi bye gah men

yay

2008-07-07T16:11:00.000+10:00

my body will be a living canvas

mom your in it!

2008-07-04T02:17:00.002+10:00

and it suddenly dawned upon me when i was in the shower that i will be bald in a few days time. 5 more days to be exact. sigh. so much for this carefree life.

anyway

i thought i saved her no as joelle. surprisingly my phone read out jon when her msg came. lol weird. my phone reads out the sender's name btw. so ya joelle or jon haha. whatever la

mom is great

2008-06-27T19:56:00.003+10:00

hello all, it will be a week more till my chinese ass be at tekong. sigh

anyways on a side note, i had a whopping good dream last night muhahahahahha. it was nothing sexual or wet however u may think. lol. i wont go, i cannot go into the details of it but i will try my best to recall as much as i can. i feel like a little kid all over again hehehehehhehehehe

ok here goes

there i was, in a departmental store at the sport section (the place i was at is just a place i was at, theres like no actual comparison to it in reality, not that i know of la but to me is no), so i was like going to walk out of the store already, till i saw a pair of shorts in a dark blue shade.

ok then after admiring the shorts but i dont know why i didnt made a purchase of it, cos i would in reality, but lol. so anyway after looking at the shorts, a pair of egg-coloured loafers caught my eye. it wasnt ur normal uncle style loafers but it was a rather special one. hard to explain so just think special and loafers. lol. as i was looking at the shoes, there was this damn damn pretty girl/chio bu beside me. i believed she was going to walk out of the store and so was i. her face stole my attention for a good 15 secs approximate. like looking at her face to face for 15 secs ah, no small deal ah if u know what i mean.

ok den i was also quite curious why she was looking at me and not walking away. maybe it was my looks too, so theres a chance she might be blogging about me too hehehe. lol jen. so after that 15 secs of awe and awesomeness, i moved my feet out of the store. as i began to do so, the chio bu began to giggle or laugh, she then pointed to the shoe in my hand. turned out that i was still holding on to the shoe, singular cos only holding one. ya.

then i um chio a little bit den we walked out the store. ok then i was walking infront and she was behind. then she came forward and i really forgotten what she said to me but then we were talking la. i remember her uniform was a white top and green skirt and shes a chio bu so i reckon a RGS girl she is! lol. then i asked her for her number at all while walking in a fcking good weather and atmosphere ah. lol. and to NO surprise, she gave her number. heheheh

ok so this the story it is. it may have wasted 5 mins of your day but heck, its for me to reminisce man. argh now i really wish my that girl will google about this dream and come find me.

oh yes i do think too much... and then then then then... after reading what i wrote, it feels like a pri school compo with all the thens.

2008-06-12T04:00:00.002+10:00

guess what? what. got a new com baby. no more freeze. speaking of freeze, i dumped a bunch of grapes into the freezer earlier in the night. im gg make myself a refreshing mass milkshake with frozen grapes. hope its taste lives up to its name and not fail for my liking.

now i sit here awaiting the arrival of my friends for some teh tarik. weird, this is the first time in like dont know how many weeks since grad that i leave my house at 2am. otherwise i will be like out from 9pm onwards. all the way till 4 - 5am. filled with abundance of poker and downtime and mengs.

guess u guys have heard me speak about those 3 activities i do daily, not forgetting the occassional clubbing. well not really occassional, just not as much as before but still counting.

anyways, yours truely will be in the dreaded tekong next month on the 9th. and wanna hear something worse? the guy who died recently in tekong, turned out to be a friend of my mate. yea ethan's poly classmate to be specific. bollocks. now i hope thats the only friend of his that is dead or is going to die. RIP andrew

lol at NS.

2008-05-29T19:53:00.000+10:00

i so want to go overseas once more for this year before entering into shit ns. bali anybody? i wanna try surfing mannnnn. plssssssssssssssssss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSPVpT0Pg5I& - bali surf

2008-05-10T18:21:00.000+10:00

2008-05-04T20:47:00.000+10:00

The use of cannabis is so spread that the plant is being cultivated as an indoor plant under the lamps without soil. The “smokers” enjoy the effects of the substance called delta-9-tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), which is found to have the “high” effect on the brain. THC present in cannabis accumulates in the brain and produces mental and physical instability, changes in color perception, emotional stress and anxiety. Today, cannabis contains more than 20 times of THC than the one cultivated 30 years before.

The statistics about the spread and use of cannabis are a cause for concern because the age of first cannabis use has been reduced drastically with teens started using this drug.

2008-04-17T23:42:00.002+10:00

maybe they'll leave you alone but not me

2008-04-02T20:46:00.004+11:00

bangkok is the bangcock man.. bang bang. booze in pails? wtf but awesome shit man. and the girls... wooooo hoooo. they'll beat the girls in zouk anytime. ANYTIME i say! we had swedish meat, canadian meat, london meat and not forgetting the local thai meat hahah. bon appetite i say! wooots.

2008-03-31T16:21:00.005+11:00

if it weren't for the fever i had previously, i would be in koh pang an now. damn! but all's well anyway, bangkok was awesome. truely awesome. the shopping, the tut tut rides, the peeping into clubs full of bikini girls (or maybe guys), the KHAOSAN!!!, the usual pressing every door bell and scooting off..

man i miss bangkok already.. really lo knn should stay longer.

i also miss the 8 other guys i went with, really had alot of fun with them. first thing we'll do when the remaining 5 returns to singapore, DOWNTIME / POKER!!

2008-03-15T10:56:00.002+11:00

1 week on pills
2 painful jabs
3 hundred odd dollars
4 me to be okay

haha

time to call me out guys. but try not to be like last time so late can, my mom dont really like. maybe not so often la k

2008-03-06T22:38:00.002+11:00

HELLO readers

i have a few words to say..

first of all, i finished my exams wheeee!

secondly, life's been good since and before the exams. bkk on the 27 march! downtime every night

thirdly, i would like to apologise for the sex photos that leaked out. i apologise to gillian, cecilia and others. to those whose names were not mentioned in the papers, you all can come find me and i will make you ladies famous too.

its too late to apologise........ one cock post

2008-03-01T21:14:00.002+11:00

hi all

my absence in this virtual world (if you guys noticed), is not cos' of the exams. haha. my computer was down la and my sis managed to restore it so yay here i am.

ok i would like to post more on what i did the past few weeks but because of yesterday, my brains kinda like dissolved.. not all la but part of it. what happened yesterday? all i remembered was, girls guys drinks girls drinks drink guys drinks poker -$42 poker drinks drinks vomit sleepy vomit vomit stoned vomit. yeap that;s bout it.

and after all, i realised, exams have only just begun...

2008-02-12T07:03:00.000+11:00

pictures as promised. erm i'm not some photoshop expert so the pictures wont be fancy panty or in collages whatever okay. pictures are pictures, just view it ok. they are in order of which-one-happened-earlier lol. this post quite picture heavy ah i warn you guys first. and enjoy :)

MCR concert

erm.. a drunk mohd. danial

a very weird and oily prata bomb

por por and jensen edison tan

poker @ lucius'

the guys who whammed all the way and smashed the oranges

d bryan, nick, tim and jensen edison tan

eugene and jielun ermm.... exercising

por por's birthday dinner yesterday

huat ah

OKAY THERE YOU GO. HOPE THE PICTURES ARE PICTURES TO YOU. HUH. WED ZOUK and thursday! valentine's day! its time to spend lovely moments with the teevee

2008-02-08T21:41:00.000+11:00

Xin Nian Kuai Le :) i already have my fill of CNY goodies and hong baos, will post up some pictures after tmrw or something! poker @ cio's tonight! wooots. drinks @ nicky's tmrw. aite aite

2008-01-28T02:42:00.001+11:00

one more drink one more fag and im done,
done with all that made me make the rest make themselves drink and fag.

why not be sober and clean,
forget gob and welcome coldplay,
with love.
so that, we can all forget the rawr.

yea everything is dying,
so shouldnt we live for the days we can live.
and not leave the days we die to live, once more.

once more i say my friend. once more.

2008-01-19T18:48:00.000+11:00

as students and teachers plunge into a spiral of thoughts into the disappearance of yours truely, i sit by my computer, suffocating myself with a giddy sense of cheekiness.

being absent from school for 4 days in a week is not a mean feat. this doesnt apply to the general public, im sure, but yes, it applies to me. then again, this is not the point. the point is, being absent from school for 4 days because of some sickness.. is really a mean feat. as much as i would like to let expletives do the talking instead, i try to hold back the horses, because.... im determined to be a well behaved kid... NOT haha. because i got a sore throat la okay so dont wanna shout.

ok so i hope i'll be back in school on monday.

note to self:
-medical on monday
-pay cc bill
-find ms doris teh

2008-01-10T08:33:00.000+11:00

abstract:

not really much difference from the past. poker and lan at downtime, thomson. prata or meng's. and zouk. zee ooo myyy god okkkk. i won SGD$9 today though heh heh.

woah woah oh oh. just humming to my song. oh ya daryl's birthday coming soon. its been awhile since i last saw you mate.

you know, some people in school are so ___. idk whats the word to describe them but the closest my vocab can describe would be these words:

screwed
petty
retarded
the-world-is-all-about-me

if you combine them, i suppose you'll get the word: fucked up. haha yeah!

i can already name a few fucked up people from school.. first up will be... HAHA

the boys from my class exempted. mhmm... probably not.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaSDpX9qeT0
Blue October - Calling You

its 5.20am btw

2008-01-02T21:40:00.000+11:00

i hope 08 will be a good year

i want to go to heaven still so i wont be so much of a naughty kid

i hope i stop the surges of wanting to have another ahem

my bank is going to multiply by two folds. its quite simple when you have what i have in the bank

be nice. less angst. hmmm its tougher than the one above. haha rawr!

real real real people please

i dont even consider this it, resolutions.

2007-12-28T08:46:00.000+11:00

time for some seriousness here.

CHOOSE ONE (on which selection you give a shit for):

IF I DONT COMPLETE THE DAMN PROJECTS,

1) i will fail this module/FYP/semester
2) i will kena scolded by my team mates
3) i will disgrace my parents
4) my friends will think i damn asshole
5) i cannot go out tmrw

JENSEN CHOOSES.....

(5) i cannot go out tmrw

THAT pretty much explains why im still online at 5.50am now :)

2007-12-25T11:04:00.000+11:00

I CAN BET WITH YOU IM THE EARLIEST TO BE AWAKE TODAY. CHRISTMAS DAY 25TH DECEMBER

and i can tell you im typing with like in gaming terms 89% drunk cos the other 11% went out to emo talks with one of eugene's girl-friend and was like ohhhh yeah i get what you mean and on it goes. come on la probably she went through shit worse than me? her tats were like 3? and quite huge too. ok i know im kinda off but hey who else can type with that level of drunkedness and yet not have a spelling error? frankly speaking for every 2 words i type, i have to backspace at least twice haha. ok make that for every 1 word LOL

to sum it up, it was dinner with family then over to tim's place for drinks and nonsense, well i won like 15$ over poker and every raise in the game i made comes with half a cup of who-know-what-they-put-into-the drink. so thats like already not bad. idk why but yeah not bad already la huh

then lucy cio had to send the 8 or 7 of us back and then eugene lim had to suggest drinking at his place and then bo pian over to his place at about 5am. knn. went to cheers, grab a 6 cans to go, 2 mixers and there, we were all ready. then we thought, sia la the 3 of us guys nia. then we find our ways to call some chicks over. rmb its 5am. then really as expected, bo chicks. only eugene could find one. she came over and yeah tt summed it up.

so timecheck now: 8am. wrong 8:09am. got church at 9am and dearest mommy just warmed up spaghetti from yesterday's leftover with par-ma-son cheese which i ah dont really ah like ah ah.

never the mind. its christmas day today and you really have to credit me for my 0 spelling error ah eh. i just hope no poker no downtime tonight 'cos i really need the precious sleep for wed.

nuff said niggas

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2007-12-24T10:20:00.000+11:00

theres certainly 100% no doubt!!

that im supposed to be tucked warmly under the blankets right at this hour. but just had to make full use of this 2 week holiday break.

its christmas eve tmrw and yeah i got to sleep right after this post else in gaming terms, im gg to have about 0% mana for anything tonight. im already holding onto my dear life of bout lets say 40% health? considering the runny nose and body aches.. man i need lucozade!!

and.. the pockets are kinda empty these few days and i dont wish to aggravate my spendings with expensive gifts. not that i do gifts exchanging every year. mommy handles those stuff hehe. BUT im going shopping later and my budget of 20$ got to well be sufficient for a couple of game books for mommy i guess. my mom loves to play sudoku and shes so good in it that she daily completes every sudoku in the TODAY newspaper. and i love my mom more than you love your own. hehe

im also considering whether to get myself a pair of laufers or a money clip. hmm. on the other hand, with reference to the previous paragraph, i think i probably should just stick to the shoes i have now and the 'card holder' im using right now haha.

hmm. before i end this post, i shall give kudos to those who have read thus far. lol. *clap clap*

i am seth cohen and im supposed to like summer roberts but a marissa non-cooper has been on my mind everytime we talk about that night. i ignore the parts 'ohhh jen kissed tim, eugene and nick'. anyw lol but... marissa... awww.

i wish dad is able to tide over his company shit now so he can give me my extra pocket money so i can spend it unnecessarily in clubs and downtime and meng's kitchen and iguana and poker!!

ps: whoever owes me money, please.. i dont wish to say names. haha (that was a fake haha) haha

2007-12-14T03:51:00.000+11:00

my classmate xiangyao asked what do we sing when we're in church.. and before i could reply him, he gave me his answer.

xy: 'you guys sing blue heaven is a place on earth right'

xy: 'hahahhahahahahaha'

was supposed to be offended by that but it was kinda funny. ok maybe very funny (to me and my class boys) and afterall, xiangyao is just a plain believer of.....

KWONG YING MA!! for those who are not sure whothefuck is Kwong Ying Ma, just refer to the picture below. a picture speaks a thousand words, this picture speaks a thousand hahaha. hahah

TADAH!!!

i think i know what xiangyao is going to say when he sees this...... any guesses? KWONG NING NA!!

2007-11-19T02:22:00.000+11:00

i wonder if password-secured blogs are the fashion nowadays. first bryan then now noah and shang.. LOL. dont push it jen dont push it. think i should set a password too, so bryan, noah and shang wont be able to see this. haha. NO WAIT. thou shall not conform... LOL whathefuck jen

anyway i cant wait for my v8 man. it comes in tomorrow, 2-4pm. now i dont know if i should skip school for it. better not la i guess, already skipped 2 days of my first week. think im the record holder now. for my class, in specific. (wtf like that also want to haolian) (wtf la, you like that also want to kp me) (wtf la damn lame lo jen) (wtf la then you still read) (WTF LA) wtf i know

any anyway, clubbing was good. been a long time since i felt good surronded by people. girls especially, and an uninvited indian dude. **food for thought: 'when were they ever wanted/invited' LOL.

let me hand out a sound advice to everyone out there (from my wealthy experience), if you keep thinking about the future and making imaginary plans, you are just wasting your time. unless your plans are general; finish poly, go ns, then proceed to uni. thats good. but if your plans are well advanced than said, youre just thinking too much. for now, just finish your poly education, go for your NS then from there, you decide for yourself what you wanna do next.

if you think otherwise, we belong to a different boat. no pun intended :)

** Disclaimer**THIS GOES OUT ONLY TO GOMES ASHLEY JOEL. if i dont do this, MDA will charge me.

2007-11-08T09:13:00.000+11:00

with the song 'best i ever had' playing now in iTunes, i try to curb my angst as much as the song tries to flood my emotions with scenes of cuddling, hugging or just some good o' loving..

what angst i'm having? www.kissofjudas.blogspot.com. this is from where my anger limit is being tested.

well Noah.. sad to say your a Tan as well! but on behalf of the brotherhood of the Red Devils.
FUCK YOU AND ARSENAL. can't imagine if you'll be screwing Man Utd infront of me. good thing you did on kissofjudas.

else... it'll be the kissofjen's ass. haha. don't take it to heart man, we just hate Arsenal.

GLORY GLORY MAN UTD! 4:0 dynamo kyiv

2007-11-06T08:02:00.000+11:00

SO i think i'm the last person to know that school starts next week. guess what, i only came to realisation about this phenomenal fact in a game of dota. LOL WYG!! WTF!!!

WTF MAN. I FEEL LIKE ITS THE FIRST DAY OF PRIMARY ONE LOL

IRONICALLY, its the last semester of my college life! oh my.. and mommy reminded me to score well for the last sem in dire hopes of improving my GPA. well mommy you know i dont give 2 hoots about my GPA. i only care about how i'm going to enjoy my life in sch.

last semester, seriously its time to kick some ass. this i wont procrastinate about. im sure. ready or not, here comes VAN JENSEN. LOL you wont get it if you didnt watch Van Wilder. beeyatch~

2007-10-24T11:48:00.000+10:00

so my yesterday started off at 7pm (what's new) and has yet to end, time check: 0949am (the day after my yesterday) haha. met up with nick for dinner and lucius and kelvin joined thereafter.

what was supposed to be one of my typical holiday nights turned out not as expected. i'm always fascinated by war and action yeah you get the drift. so far the only person alike me in favourite genres of movies is xiangyao. haha i bet he's a great partner to be with during war.

so yeah i leaked out my secret to darius and soon (after this sentence), you guys. haha. yesterday was my first time watching The Gladiator! haha. ok not much of a secret you guys would like to hear. well i'm still straight, if you are hoping for me to declare i'm gay or what. haha.

BUTTT if you guys haven't watched The Gladiator, i strongly urge and recommend you to do so. how to jen? you must be thinking. go google and type 'watch the gladiator movie online'. TRUST ME it works. or go movie6.net but its lacking one part. yeah just do the google one.

live for yourself people. i'm not going to tell you that its just a movie that satisfy your hunger for death, action or entertainment. it underrates the movie. well anyway most people nowadays are well gladiators of lives. if you think i'm talking about you, you might be right...

–noun
a person, often a slave or captive, who was armed with a sword or other weapon and compelled to fight to the death in a public arena against another person or a wild animal, for the entertainment of the spectators.

think - probably the political world; probably the army; or probably 'people' you call friends

2007-10-22T03:19:00.000+10:00

you guys must miss my video posts.. haha right. i must say i'm radiohead-influenced once again after watching one of their music video off the mtv channel when over at JM's place ytd with the guys. the other time was creep, this time its high and dry. here's some sweet ingenuity of Thom Yorke for you people.

Radiohead - High and Dry

It's a story of trust and betrayal, where couples and shady businessmen alike suffer the consequences of doubt, and where the only true moment exists in a chance encounter between Yorke and a young kid in the restroom.

oh and by the way, you can get their songs from their new album - In Rainbows

for as low as a dollar. or you can just download it illegally. or ask a friend to download it for you. thanks jiamin :] haha

2007-10-11T04:14:00.000+10:00

the days spent in slumber...

and the nights.....

never get better!!!

lan with nick and bunch always begin on a good note and end on a even better one. i never knew Peirce was that corrupted. haha man holidays are goooood

we spot a chopper over the skies sergeant! he's flying well as expected!
jen: roger that (from the chopper)

targets down - XXVIII 28

this is SSGjen from black hawk
OVER AND OUT!

2007-09-30T02:25:00.000+10:00

there are some things that are not just told to anybody, not even friends. what you see is never always what you get. thats probably the reason why i dont wish to explain certain stuff unless i see a very good friend/person in you. those who know me inside out are surely those whom i know inside out.

to the sec sch bunch :]

2007-09-24T21:34:00.000+10:00

TURNING 19 TWO DAYS LATER!

OH MAN. I CAN SO WAIT TO GROW UP :\

-edit-

Thank you allll again for wishing me well :) pretty surprised at well wishes from some friends we hardly talk but its all good haha :)

its the first birthday that i got 3 presents from one person

thanks lovely. thank you all once again and yes time to grow up jen

2007-09-18T04:58:00.000+10:00

was watching a re-run episode of desperate housewives on tv and something they said was cheekily honest.

do you know of a couple who is always together, always in love?
hmmm most probably u wouldn't. but there's one.
and its the couple always on top of the wedding cakes.
want to know how they manage to be always together?
well for starters, they dont look at each other :)

i know this picture above has no relevance but just found it interesting.

if you notice, there's 2 yolk in each egg. keke.

man i miss my cup :\

2007-09-14T18:14:00.000+10:00

hi everybody, i know most of you are slogging your sorry asses either for IPP or part-time work. just to let you know, i'm functioning well like a...... ok can't find the appropriate word(goes to show what i've been doing for the holidays)

anyway... i've been observing human behaviour for quite some time now; not that this oberservation is some rocket science research. ok yes so i've noticed that some of the people/friends around me are selfish. and that's really disgusting. well perhaps its better off to stfu haha.

lastly, bon voyage to you guys, nic & tim, and shall 10 men dota again and again when you return

2007-08-30T01:22:00.000+10:00

DRAINED. but the chalet was all good. pity we didnt had any horror dvds haha. burp

2007-08-25T19:37:00.000+10:00

who wants to go eat at chinatown market with me? the food there damn good nvr bluff.

2007-08-24T16:05:00.000+10:00

blast my exam-over-song

OOHHHH EXAMS OVERRR

HELLLOO HHHOLLIDDAAYYSS

!!!!!!!

2007-08-23T02:43:00.000+10:00

yawns...........................

maybe u will find it more WTF-ish

(click on the image if you cant view it properly, stupid)

laughing out loud LOL. ok i know the cancelling of name doesnt make a big difference but thats the whole main point. LOL. im just a cool kid. and ashley says 'imagine XXXXXXX in bikini'........... AHHHHHHH!!

a post dedicated for the elites by an elite. can you smell the chalet approaching *sniff sniff

2007-08-20T03:27:00.000+10:00

needless to say, tmr global supply chain exam sure gg. like every valentino rossi wannabe, i chose riding instead of studying. riding at a constant speed of 110km/h at 11pm is damn happening yes damn happening. nicely topped off with the cool weather and the thrill of riding without a licence.

but at the end of the day, failing a module 'cos you didnt study enough for it is just like masturbating - you're fucking yourself.

but i see it in on a brighter side - if i were to fail given my intellect, a helluva big group of the exam goers are going to join me, fucking ourselves.

so head to your bible and pray i don't fail tmr :)

RACISTTT

2007-08-15T07:01:00.000+10:00

if i ever find out that my granny is like this...

she won't live for very long

if you're wondering,
my granny should be taking care of a white dog instead of a black one. (refer to pic.1)
HAHAHHAHAAHHAHA
PWNED!!

pokai(cantonese)=bastard

2007-08-12T20:00:00.000+10:00

pokai ah melvin! celebrated siew mai's bthday at marina ytd. then epl+beer at vin's after that. and fuck you steven gerrard tiu leh hou mou ah. if not for his free kick goal, i would have 10 dollars worth of mcdonald's credit money from ben la cb. a couple of hours after the match, i knocked out on the couch. fcking tired. must be the projects and shit over the few weeks la. damn draining on our health leh cb nyp. at least its over for now, but the devil-damned exams are next la. pokai la nyp

on the flipside of the hand(lol), we have a 3-months long holiday! jolly oh jenny! cannot wait sia, provided that i dont fail any modules.. and i am now training my muscles, not for the upcoming napfa but the class chalet; got to punch some fuck face during the class chalet ahahha.

and ok now i've updated ah :)

2007-08-07T20:16:00.000+10:00

Wrenched

2007-08-04T03:21:00.000+10:00

Some say love it is a river

That drowns the tender reed

Some say love it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed

It's a heart afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's a dream afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken

Who can not seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying

That never learns to live

bikerboys

2007-08-01T02:48:00.000+10:00

i started on my international business project last week, completing 'threat of new entrants' and covering a bit of 'threat of substitutes'.

just awhile ago, i opened the file and wasted about 5 mins of my life. it seems like my brain is malfunctioning. the words on my screen don't seem to make any sense to me. i hope it helps a bit by switching off the tv. it better be. 'cos thursday is the deadline.

like so dead

if you want to be a wannabe, make sure ur 100% a wannabe.

dont be wannabe of a wannabe +)

*edited*

i miss my class boys - from chewwabaca to emo kid to xyz to short prick to mat buddy

cheese!

2007-07-23T03:57:00.000+10:00

HAHAHHAA

grape branch of chilli sauce

2007-07-22T05:37:00.003+10:00

lol 6am and still wide awake. daryl wanted to test his webcam so jiamin, daryl and i had some fun in the sick hours of the day haha. anybody wanna webcam with me? for fun, not some sexual stuff.. actually i wont mind la haha. wait........ lol.

by the way, how's the new blog layout? got to give credits to miss onn jmpod for it haha (:

oh ya whoever wanna be linked, just let me know k. hallelujah

*edit* i dont like the comment thing!! =\

^^

2007-07-21T02:07:00.000+10:00

this post is for shaowen!! since you requested for pictures of my girlfriend.. do enjoy! (:

awwwwwwwwwwww

this one is my ang moh girlfriend

.hehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehe.

errr?

2007-07-10T06:24:00.000+10:00

*drumrolls*

note people, this, has taken over my usual nightlife. this, people, is my new nightlife. step aside kids, let mua introduce you to my new nightlife - reading stupid blogs(jenholicsm.blogspot doesnt count as one), fantasizing about my bike, thinking whether should i watch teevee 'cos after watching all those live earth ads, i even think twice about using so much toilet paper, and i think that the lights are on, computer is on and these already kills mother nature indirectly by 0.067%(fake it). yea what i've just said(typed) pretty much sums up my current nightlife.

ah HAPPENING ah! oh ya i forgot to add that i constantly piss the shit out of myself when my the left button of my mouse acts so doubly fast when i click so most of the time i just double click and that really gets the dinner/supper(sushi) in my stomach to just wanna eat itself. wtf?

and i really should have light a fag like an hour ago? wtf. its like 4.32 now. cool 432. okay i'll sleep at 456 haha 456-432=(give me a minute ah) eh 24? yea 24 minutes more. you know its not my math thats lousy, its the time that i'm doing my math that makes me lousy =\

wtf. yes what the fuck. lessons at 10 (:

7/7/7

2007-07-07T22:31:00.000+10:00

be good

-se7en

the perishers

2007-07-05T05:03:00.000+10:00

listen to either one or both. you won't regret, trust me.

The Trapeze Swinger

2007-06-30T17:59:00.000+10:00

One of the most subtly beautiful songs I have ever heard. I have to keep repeating it. It speaks to the bittersweet nostalgic feeling of being alive to all of the joy and tragedy in the world, viewed through the lens of the effects of the passage of time on relationships and moments that we can never relive.

shake shake spray

2007-06-23T00:39:00.001+10:00

coming to a ground near you

malaysia, truly wilson

2007-06-23T00:39:00.000+10:00

Hoorah!
guess you guys will know what this post is on. so yeah the genting + kl trip was pretty much awesome. gained bout +5 skill points for my guts in genting. seriously its damn shiok to go overseas with a bunch of close friends. imagine checking in to a corner room and the only room beside yours, is occupied by your friends. this what we do - my ipod+ethan's speakers=our loud music you can even hear from 4 rooms away LOL. too bad we didnt bring a videocam, otherwise you can get to see me pressing every doorbell and the other 3 scrambling back to our rooms haha. really la, coolio stuff.

KL also, shiok only. walk and shop and walk and shop and eat and shop and laugh at ugly guys with unshaven moustache. and i tell you, ethan and i laughed for 5 mins non stop while on the journey back to Singapore. LOL. and the best thing i bought in KL took me the entire day to forage for. notice its FORAGE FOR and not LOOK FOR. i'm sure my sweetheart will love it (:
anyways i'm too tired to continue so shall leave the pictures.....(too cliche to continue)

homies!room mate - ethan pissing. you wouldn't wanna see the shitting pic.15°C and we're in shortsyeahhh
NBHD / Supreme haha benenough said

next stop: bangcock!

eh eh eh

2007-06-18T02:15:00.000+10:00

getaway begins (:

ka-ching!

2007-06-16T07:34:00.000+10:00

hi guys, i guess this will be a wordy post. bet y'all must have missed my rambling ah. ccb. (the ccb is to add the natural feel) ccb.

so the holidays are here.. i know it sounds weird cos we're like into half of the holidays already eh. ccb. yeah so nth much for the first week. just that i sleep at 6-7am and wake up at 4-5pm everyday, well at least for this week. it's pretty cool actually, sleeping when everyone wakes up. and waking up to see the sun is going set soon. haha. cool shit. you just got to blame late night meetups and overnight gaming, man this........rocks. ccb.

anyways, your man here won't be in town the next week cos i'll be at genting/kl with ma sec sch homies, the pods. don't be jealous pricks. ccb. be happy for me! ccb.

and we say, we are the rich mafia kids. hoo-rah baby.

note: the number of ccb expressions used in this post multiply by 11
(the no. of hours i sleep) equals to the number of letters there are in this
post.

someone please tell me if the above is true.

oh carol beer

2007-06-13T20:19:00.001+10:00

computer says no..

computer says yes!

aspirins

2007-06-09T20:42:00.000+10:00

and so i was telling weng, it feels good to club with a specific bunch of people. you'll feel on top of the world, but without alcohol this time. additionally, you'll be on ecstacy with alcohol.

so now, call yourself a cunt!

aftermath

2007-06-02T17:54:00.000+10:00

an awesome night i must say. after a long hiatus from clubbing, yesterday, lorraine's birthday celebration at mosque, sure made it a helluva night. and i tell you, i met my ultimate match in the 5,10,15 hand game - Poh yee. knn man, shes the first girl i lose to for consecutive rounds la and i guess its thanks to her and the 5 secs off the bottle that really killed me.

and i guess the worst thing to do is really to break a girl's heart :\

update

2007-05-29T00:13:00.000+10:00

update.

ninja

2007-05-03T01:16:00.000+10:00

iiiiiiii i iiiiiiii

like the i above,

is the i,

i am.

oh just carry on twirps

2007-04-24T01:47:00.000+10:00

and now i realised, the people are about 5 years in lag time. haha.

i sit and laugh;
while you live,
and relive my memories.

to the elites for the elites by an elite.

Graffiti 12:8

2007-04-16T11:22:00.000+10:00

awwwwwww. here are 2 of the completed stencils i did. still amatuer work but i'll better the upcoming ones. be prepared to see them in sch or on my tees.

heee haaaa

TGIF

2007-04-13T12:13:00.000+10:00

we ignore the no t-shirts on friday thing.

oh man, every friday seems like the climax of an orgasm. really.. anyw i've cut out 3 stencils! woooo. now i cannot wait to go buy spray paint, the canisters type. i will test out the designs on my room wall (lol sry mom), if its nice, i'll also spray my design on a blank shirt. woooo.

damn it. just when i was going to have an ejaculation upon thoughts of stencils and graffiti, miss supervisor assigned me with new work. to be handed in by 2.30pm
-adjust clock to 2 hrs before-

there, now i have 2 more hours to slack.

now allow me to digress,
i was just thinking, how do you maintain a firm relationship? (bf gf that relationship) was reading blogs and as i wandered off into unknown blogs (LJs in specific), i noticed a distinct similarity amongst them. hmmm, meetups with yr bf/gf on weekends is enough to sustain a loving relationship? i really wonder, are they going to progress their relationship into something more paramount, like marriage? if not, then why bother wasting time and money? ain't flings more worth it to consider? eh i'm not looking forward to an increase in breakups ah :)

ignore JEN.

the yellow (highlighted) part will be black. ooo imagine that. cunt wait for my spray paint to cum. LOL. till then, adios.

hee hee

2007-04-12T15:50:00.000+10:00

a tribute to the increase of ministers' salaries

click here, to have 10 mins of creepy fun.

peter pan's syndrome

2007-04-09T16:48:00.000+10:00

wait till you reach the out-of-teen phase,
you'll start to regret, like how you regret not throwing enough wet tissues onto toilet ceilings and spitting from the top floor.
it's now or never, people.

man i really cannot wait for sch to start :\

2007-04-07T19:40:00.001+10:00

like a biblical truth

2007-04-04T14:20:00.000+10:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

amen.

rooftop cuddling

2007-04-02T13:31:00.000+10:00

yr like a peak that loomed through the mist.

I wanna make my dream come true
We'll build a house at some no-man's island
I'll feed you with fish and rabbit's meat
And we'll live on love

it still is an uncertainty i can't quite fill.

sidetracking, i really can't wait for this month to end. that nirvanic obsession with ink married on my skin is really plundering my mind everytime i take off my clothes =\

DOR

2007-03-31T15:48:00.000+10:00

*edited

'nuff said

Creep

2007-03-29T19:14:00.000+10:00

by Radiohead

first watch the video once.
lyric-read when u replay it.
if you wna watch it the third time, fix yr eyes on the vid when its 1min left into the vid.

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world
I wish I was special,
you're so fucking special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here

She's running out the door,
she's running,
she run, run, run, run, run.

Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You're so (mother) fucking special,
I wish I was special,

but I'm a creep, I'm a jensen.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here.

cardiac arrest

2007-03-25T16:15:00.000+10:00

your hands

and feet

are mine to hold